Here’s What I’m Working On

Today, I spent some time with my son working on one of his school projects. He drove me crazy. I wanted him to sit, focused and quiet while getting it done. He wanted to hum, giggle, gurgle and play drums on the paper. I took as much as I could take and then I told him I needed to take a break.

I went upstair to where my wife was laying on the bed and told her the story. She laughed. Then she reminded me that this was the son I prayed for. When we were dating and talking about a family, I let her know that if we had 3 kids and they were all girls, I was going to push for a fourth because I wanted a boy. She’s thankful we didn’t have to go that route.

She reminded me that this son, the boy who carries my name, was the what I prayed for. She laughed. Then I laughed. We both lay in the bed giggling. I smiled because of the ease with which he was going through life. He was just enjoying himself and living. Here I was, getting a bit tense because he was…living. I was tense and he wasn’t frustrated in the least because he was simply enjoying himself.

We let others frustrate us all the time. We watch a video or read a status update on social media and we get frustrated. We drive up our blood pressure and get our stress levels up. All the while, the other person has no idea how we feel and doesn’t care because they are simply…living.

Here’s what I’m working on. I’m learning to turn off the judgment meter and simply live.

I’m working on simply showing up at my best and letting the chips fall.

I’m working on playing the game…the life game, playing it full-out, fully expressed, all-in!

I’m working on quieting the voices which hold me back.

I’m working on being a bigger version, a 10x version of me, not in weight but in action.

I’m working on finding a way to enjoy every moment I can.

I’m working on being intentional about my laughter…finding a way to create laughter every day instead of waiting for it to come to me.

I’m working on creating an even more amazing relationship with my wife daily.

I’m working on enjoying every moment with my kids.

I’m working on giving everything I’ve got without being killjoy serious.

I’m working on allowing people to see care in my eyes in every interaction.

I’m working on helping others to see the possibility in the own dreams through the words I share and the kindness I show.

I’m working on being a better version of me than I was 5 minutes ago.

I’m working on being consistent where it counts.

I’m working on being the biggest resource I can be for others.

I’m working on creating a non-profit or foundation before my next birthday to help youth pay for school and start businesses.

I’m working on leaving a legacy of connection. I want to be known as the guy who made everyone feel like they mattered.

I’m working on a lot of stuff. That’s ok. What’s life without a little work!

Today is Day 67 of a 12 week writing journey.